Let Me

Let me go blind,

That is how i'll stop.

Stop looking for you,

Stop finding traces of you.

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Let me go deaf,

That is how i'll stop,

Stop listening the music in you,

Stop the tunes as clue.

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Let me go mute,
That is how i'll stop,
Stop taking the name belonging to you,
Stop every word describes you.
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Or let me just die,
That is how i'll stop.
Stop from hoping the wrong
Stop from trumping my disability.
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I am a cripple,
Disable to senses.
There's no land,
Beyond these good fences.
Imaginary but they make me bleed.
Only physical pain is seed,
Grows into small tree,
Which is doomed to death
Absent of faith,
Of belief
Of love
Of grief.
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All there what remains
Is Linguistic process
Like any machine would
Knowing what fits
Where it fits,
Only words are not in scarce.
Let me stop being a Human.
That's how i'll stop.
Stop living a lie.
Stop living at all
Funny words
Being my laugh and cry.
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I shall not find you,
Never shall.
I'll let you happen.
Like a bullet catching me,
In crossfire
Hitting me to senses
Back to life(probably)
Where words
Be not mere words.
A smile be a smile,
Fear would be Fear,
And tears would be clear.
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But wait,
I shall hope that you never happen.
Never till i breath my last.