Then and Now

Reading the old mails,
A smile is there,
with passing moment my reasoning fails,
holding on to it was it still fair?
.
the love,the care as i read,
my heart started skipping beats.
i started getting afraid,
this moment i am clueless about where it leads.
.
that shine in the eye,
never ending laughter.
just words and meaning passing by,
leaving time in alter.
.
It all seemed great,
us being together.
never thought that time would create,
such instances that it would falter.
.
closing eyes and holding hands,
walking towards a point.
now the bond is in strands,
line diverging from wishful joint.
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day would pass in wait of night,
night would walk with feeling.
now the tears and soaked pillows are right,
right again would start healing.
.
where it all changed,
heart had its second beat.
now its another feeling to be arranged,
waiting for you to mess up the neat.